Sometimes

Sometimes I get frustrated and overwhelmed with life.

I see the glass half empty.

Sometimes I feel alone.

It seems like the choices that I’ve made have amounted to nothing.

Sometimes old wounds rear their ugly heads and remind me that I’m still broken.

I want to isolate and hide myself instead of being vulnerable and reaching out when I need help.

Then, by the grace of God, I take a small step.  Risk my pride and cry in front of friends once again.  I put one foot in front of the other and continue on.  Still feeling a bit battered and worse for wear.

Then, as I’m doing something as mundane as cleaning up and organizing, I find myself overwhelmed at the Father’s goodness and mercy and grace over my life.

While looking through a box of saved letters, cards, sticky notes and random notes of encouragement from the past 6 years He began to fill my heart up with thankfulness and joy and hope once again.

Sometimes we need to remember.  We need to remember how far we’ve come and how much we’ve grown in the process.

We need to believe once again that the heartaches and scars have been worth it.

Sometimes we need cry it out and let His love fill our hearts afresh.

This doesn’t mean that all the pain and uncertainty goes away.

It doesn’t mean that we minimize our feelings and shove the loose ends under the rug.

It means that we give Him space to realign our thinking with His.  We allow Him to adjust our heartbeat to His while we rest in His ever assuring, capable arms.  It is in this place that He strengthens us in our weaknesses.  He puts things into proper perspective.

The giants don’t seem quite as big anymore.  I mean, they’re still there, but not nearly as intimidating as before. It’s like we’ve been given a supernatural boost of endurance to take that next needed step.

Sometimes we forget who our God is.

Sometimes we forget that we are His beloved children.

Sometimes we need a reminder of what is ALWAYS true.  We just tend to be a bit forgetful and far too easily swayed by a few waves.

Thank God that when I’m feeling emotionally overwhelmed, He isn’t.

When I’m feeling weak and broken and insignificant, He knows just what to do.

Sometimes we spiral and need to be reminded to just be.  

“Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father,
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not
As Thou hast been Thou forever wilt be.”

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